I wish my heart grew numb and cold. I wish I didn’t have feelings because now that I’m able to feel them again, I feel like I’ll shatter. I’ll shatter into little pieces that doesn’t belong in this world. My fragile heart can’t handle having too much emotions, feelings, and doubts. I wish my heart grew numb and cold, unable to feel a thing. I wish it grew this way again because it would be so much easier for me to handle things. I just wish I could go numb again.
Getting back on track..
I know for this past months, my blog posts were about moving on thingy, sadness, pain, bitterness and anything that related with the break up I’ve been through last 6 months (that seems like the end of the world for me). And if you’re asking me if I’m okay now, my answer would be a big NO, but somehow I managed to put the pieces of myself back together one step at a time. Well, maybe everything will be okay soon but not now.
Too much drama will be if I kept on ranting about this sad experience and howling with pain, so I’ve decided spend more time with my family, friends, God and with MYSELF. This past months I’ve been very busy with school but not just with my academics but also with extra curricular things at school. Currently, I’m one of the executive officers of our organization (PIIE-HAU Student Chapter). Honestly, it maybe very exhausting (I almost cried during the our college days preparation.haha), still I’m happy with what I’am doing now. So yes definitely, I’m getting back on track little by little..sounds lame :))))